There are days that I can laugh and joke with my friends. And then there are days that I want to hide away from the world. What gets me through my dark days are pieces of memories that I hold tight. Comments from friends. Reactions from family. Simple actions from loved ones. Every day I fight, and I choose to see life in a lighter form. Each day I push to not let life and stress tear me down. I have seen what my life looked like at the bottom. And I refuse to let my star shine burnout. Memories …
Tiredly Racing to Burn Out
Sometimes life just doesn’t go your way. Earlier this month I was feeling good. Things were going the right way I was feeling happier. I was feeling proud of myself and powerful. But things suddenly changed. Now lately, I feel overwhelmed. Days start to blend together. Just walking around on autopilot. How could my good feelings just disappear? Why can’t I just be happy? Just feel so tired and burned out. Identifying A friend reached out to me, checking to see how I was doing. I had also reached out to my therapist about this feeling. I was worried that …
Hiding in a Box of Emotions
I was talking with my friends lately about how they handle situations in their life. I was wondering because they seem to be so calm even when they are frustrated or faced with questions. How do you get through each day when you are faced with so much? Struggles and irritations at work wear you down. Maybe home life is not as perfect as you want it to be. If you are like me and start to feel like taking a break from life, how do you get through the day? What keeps you moving forward? Do you box it …
It is a Symptom of Being Human
I have been reminiscing lately about my life. Thinking about everything I have experienced and how it has shaped my life as it is today. My son was having an emotional episode lately and asked me “Mom, why am I here?” and “Why am I the way I am?” These questions are not easy to answer. Because there are so many ways to answer them. But it was these questions that made me think. I have been trying for so long to figure out my place in this world. To understand why I was in this world. How do I …
What really is the true cause and affect
I am sitting here listening to the thunder outside wondering to myself, why can’t I just “flip a switch” inside of me and be happy for once? There are days that I just don’t want to be around anyone. Like it would feel so wonderful if I could pause everything in my life just to get a breather. And there are days when feel light and giddy. It is those days I feel powerful and proud. Why can’t I have more of those days? What happened that made me see life so differently? If this is my effect, what was …
When you need to start talking
I have been hearing many people talk about how a loved one doesn’t understand them. “They just don’t get it.” Or I will hear “they just don’t listen to me.” While these may be true, I must ask, are you talking? Communication is vital when it comes to…well everything. We must have clear communication when we talk to doctors, so they know how to make us feel better. However, we also must have clear communication when we talk to our friends and family. As someone once said, perception is reality. But is it? Reception At my job, I think about …
Different ways to grieve
As we all get older, we will experience life and death. Watching family and friends having babies, bringing in new life into this crazy world. But unfortunately, we will also experience the loss of life too. Losing loved ones to disease, disaster, crime, and natural causes. Every experience has a chance to teach us more about our life. However, it can also show us how we should live our life. Grieving the loss of family and friends is natural. And everyone grieves differently. There is no right or wrong way. Choices Recently, we found ourselves making the hard choice of …
Do you know what you want?
How many of you get asked what you want to eat and cannot answer the simple question? Almost like it has all this power and you are terrified of making the wrong decision. Or maybe you are like me, and you like so many different things so you might as well let the other person choose their favorite. That way you don’t have to make the decision at all. But this is just food. What about your life? Do you know what you want out of your life? What about your job? What is important to you? Who’s Story So …
Are You Hiding in Disguise from the World?
I can encounter anywhere from 20 to 100 people each day as I do about my business. Between family, friends, coworkers, and strangers, so many others will see me. Many will only see a smile on my face. A few may find a blank stare or find me thinking. But only a chosen few will really know what I have on my mind. As we all move about our days, how many of us have become a master of disguises? Hiding behind smiles, the real truth of our mental state. Hiding from the truth Life brings challenges and strain to …
Now In Pursuit of My Personal Independence Day
Today in America, it is a holiday. We are celebrating the 4th of July also known as Independence Day. And as families and friends gather today to spend time together, many of us are still fighting. Independence Day celebrates the freedom we have to live our lives. But too many of us are still trapped. I am not talking about physically trapped or fighting with weapons or our hands. We are fighting ourselves. Trapped in our minds trying to get a moment of freedom to live. Trapped If you have experienced anxiety or depression, you may have felt trapped by …