I have been trying to learn more about who I am. As each year goes by, I find myself angry that I wasted my early years. I am in my late 40’s and I am trying to figure out who I am. Most people use their 20s and maybe even their 30s to figure out what they like and what they want in life. But for me, I was so deep into a depression and this false sense of worth, that I was lost.
Mirror Mirror
Today, I am learning more. Like how I always felt that I was not go enough to do much in a career. I was lost to what I wanted to do with my life. That was until I pushed my mind to think past the negative and look for something more. That was how I found a career that I am excited about, enjoy, and have fun. I didn’t think I was smart enough to handle the job and would end up making a fool of myself. Instead, I am finding more friends and I have the support of so many in the company that I feel like I can do more.
Getting to know who you are and what you want in life is not easy at all. But the more I look at myself and push myself to look beyond, I am finding something new. That I really don’t know myself very much. At least not this new me. But this is only the beginning.
Old vs New
I found myself retreating back into my old ways of letting others needs surpass my own. For a long time, I allowed the needs of everyone around me, take precedence over everything I wanted and needed. I walked through life like that. So much, I lost myself in the process. I no longer knew who I was anymore. And when my eyes were opened that this is not the way to live, I knew I needed to make a change. It was time to learn who I was again.
There are times that we need to step back and look at who we are and especially, who we are to our friends and family. Because there are times when I realize that I am not the person that is best for them. That I am not what they really need and want. All because I am not yet the person I need to be.
Time is ticking
I now know who I want to be. It has taken me much longer than it should. But that’s okay. Because I can still work towards that person. And for me, I need to be the one that believes in myself. I need to be someone that is strong in front of others, not just behind the scenes. Someone that knows it will be hard and at times, down right brutal. But this new version of me will stand strong and know I am better for it.
If you are struggling in life, look inward for a moment. Do you know who you are? What you need to be and who you want to be? What it is that you really want in life? Because it is who you know in life. And the one person you should know the best…is you. You are wonderful, magical, and special to us all. Just remember, you are enough…especially when it comes to you and your life.
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With great warmth,
