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Just a Little Piece of Candy for You

Today is Halloween in the US. A day for kids to walk around in costumes of various styles and ask for candy. I sit here watching the families walking by as I hand out the candy and think about all of these people in this world. What could their life be like? Are they happy? To imagine everyone in this world having different experiences and living different lives. And each one pushing through, trying to find their happiness. We walk around in our little bubbles not realizing that someone is also going through something. What would this world be like …

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When plugging into an outlet can help

Ever have one of those days that you wish you could forget? Maybe it wasn’t a bad day or a very stressful day, but just one that used all of your energy? Of course you have. We all have. But what do you do at the end of that stressful day? What is your outlet to plug into and relax? Do you have a hobby or maybe go to the gym? All of that energy you used during the day, how are you refilling your cup? Outlets are very important resources to help get us through the craziness we face. …

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All I want to do is understand

I had an interesting conversation with my mom this week. I have been working on improving myself and loving myself these past 3 years. Learning to love who I am and enjoy being me. Since I also found the new job, it has really helped. Pushing me to believe in myself and trust my instincts. But I still have down days. Bad days that want me to hide from all that know me. And in the conversation with my mom, she couldn’t understand why I had them. Don’t Ask Don’t Tell Ever ask someone to explain how they felt at …

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How my life stepped forward only to trigger back

This past week I have dealt with being sick with COVID, changes at work, the family getting sick, and changes in vacation plans. And even with all of that, I have been trying to keep focusing on myself. But I Tuesday night, something strange happened. I had a trigger out of the blue. How do I know? Because suddenly my mind shifted. Nothing was right. Nothing was good. My mind went from everything being good, to everything being dark. It was that quick. That easy. I fell. The good parts My life has been turning around lately. I love my …

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Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow in One Person

These past few days have been difficult for me. But when I was able to get out from under them, they became a lesson. We struggle getting through some days. But if we take the time, they can be the lesson we didn’t know we needed. I had someone ask me if I wished to go back in time to do things differently. Sure. Most of us have things in our past we would love to have done differently if we had the chance. But the thing is, if we didn’t make those decisions back then, we wouldn’t be the …

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How to spot a bully

Unfortunately, in today’s world, bullying is still evident. This past week, my son was a victim of bullying by a few kids at his school. When he told me about it, I immediately sent a message to the principal stating the situation. I then sat my son down to discuss the event and some of the steps he can take to fight back against bullying, well that don’t involve fists. The school addressed the issue and assured both myself and my son that there should be no further incidents. This whole scenario had me thinking about how bullying is not …

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I doubt you can doubt more than me

This week was a test of mental stability for sure. Well, for me it was. I have been with my company for only about 4 months now. The people are so nice, and I can see many of them really care about each other. I look around and see people working hard, laughing, and casual conversations. It is a pleasant experience each day. And for 4 months, I have had a really good time here. But this week really tried me and my mental health. And suddenly, my own self doubt found a way to creep back in. Creeping back …

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Did you know it really is okay?

Every day we go through our lives of work, home, school, family, friends, responsibilities, and for some reason we tend to forget the one thing that is most important…ourselves. Over my life I have fought against the lows of depression and anxiety. I even danced in the highs of just feeling happy. We will be faced with decisions and stress so many times, we cannot forget that there are positive times in life. Did you know it is okay to feel happy? And it is okay to not be okay? Growing up When I was younger, I remember times that …

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Star light, star bright, do not burn out tonight

There are days that I can laugh and joke with my friends. And then there are days that I want to hide away from the world. What gets me through my dark days are pieces of memories that I hold tight. Comments from friends. Reactions from family. Simple actions from loved ones. Every day I fight, and I choose to see life in a lighter form. Each day I push to not let life and stress tear me down. I have seen what my life looked like at the bottom. And I refuse to let my star shine burnout. Memories …

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Tiredly Racing to Burn Out

Sometimes life just doesn’t go your way. Earlier this month I was feeling good. Things were going the right way I was feeling happier. I was feeling proud of myself and powerful. But things suddenly changed. Now lately, I feel overwhelmed. Days start to blend together. Just walking around on autopilot. How could my good feelings just disappear? Why can’t I just be happy? Just feel so tired and burned out. Identifying A friend reached out to me, checking to see how I was doing. I had also reached out to my therapist about this feeling. I was worried that …