It was going so well too. I was feeling better. Even laughing more. That was until it all fell apart. As if someone came up to me and just “POP!” of my happy little balloon. It wasn’t one thing, but a series of events that found me at the bottom. Add in the emotional roller coaster of menopause and the fire was lit. Just two weeks ago, my mental state came crashing down. So why did it take me 2 weeks to call my therapist?
When you find yourself crying every night, or trying to paint a mask each day, is it time? How about when you walk around wondering why? Is it time then? When is the right time to reach out for help? Answer, every time. No matter the time or the situation, reach out.
Start Talking
I have several people that I reach out to for various reasons when I need support. Some are easier to get a hold of than others, but each one is able to guide me and my emotions to a safer level. But that didn’t happen this time. Because this time, I didn’t reach out to very many of them. There were about 4 people that really knew all of what was happening. I was in a dark place, and I didn’t know how I was going to get out of it.
Need a little more
I finally realized this week that I needed more help. It was time to reach out to my therapist again. Unfortunately, too many people are still struggling with this. The acceptance that there is something wrong and they need help. More help than their friends and family can provide. Scared of what someone may think because they needed a therapist.
This is what I was thinking that kept me back from getting help sooner.
“I don’t want to be that friend that only complains.”
“Why would they want to talk to me if I am always negative?”
“Can’t they see that I am quiet? Don’t they care?”
Not alone
First, we have to realize that we are not the only ones that are fighting the demons in life. Each person out there has events, frustrations, moments, and just the overall craziness of life. Just because they don’t see it right away, doesn’t mean they don’t care. As one of my friends told me, “It is hard for those around us to see the true wonder we have within, because life kicks us all.” Although we would all love to be the center of attention, we have to realize that we are not the only ones.
Pick up the phone
When you go to school or to work tomorrow, look around. Each person has a life story full of happiness and sadness. Every person has days that they wish they could forget. And some days that they would love to experience all over again. Even those people that seem happy all of the time. So, if you are having a rough time in life right now, talk to someone. And if you are content right now, reach out to a friend. Because you never know what you will find. It could be that one person that saves a life. Or you can be that one person that saves theirs. It is okay to not be okay. As long as you keep trying to move forward.
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With great warmth,
