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Something will always change

I have learned a little more about myself recently. I am finding lately that my actions in similar situations are changing. What I mean is that I used to react in a certain way in a common situation. But now I have found myself reacting differently. And its simple, I’m tired. I have faced this life for so long that I am tired. Pushed myself to keep the peace, to keep quiet, to hide. I don’t have the energy anymore. The bigger problem, I don’t have the energy to do much about it either. Constant We all know life throws …

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Thank you for being with me.

Some days I can sit here staring at my laptop screen wondering just what I am going to talk about. I started thinking about everything I have felt this week. Anything my family or friends have gone through. Topics that maybe I haven’t discussed yet. Thinking so much that I just can’t decide. So tonight I am just going to say thank you. I started this blog in November 2020, during a time of my life that was probably the lowest I had felt. Constantly moving through each day on an autopilot, numb feeling. I saw no happiness, no positiveness …

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The Battles We Choose: Red Lights and Hard Days

Life will always find a way to test you. To make you scream in frustration or ask, “why me?” When you start to feel like you have a handle on your life, there seems to always be another thing to push you. How we handle each test, each day of our lives will determine how happy we are. How you manage your day to day, your stress will give you the happy days or the bad days. Because life will never stop testing you. Are you up for the challenge? Small Stuff There is an internet saying going around that …

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The only one that cares the most is you

I have heard a phrase in the past that didn’t quite make sense until recently. “The person who cares for you the most, understands you the deepest, and stays with you through everything is ultimately you.” We can’t expect everyone to be around every minute. To be available at our beckon call. It doesn’t mean that we don’t have people that do really care about us. But it is true that there is only one person that understands us. The hard part is there are times when I don’t understand myself at all. Them My son is a preteen boy. …

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You are not the only one behind a mask

Every person wears a mask. Not a literal mask, but a façade they hide behind. They serve different purposes, and most look the same. But we all have one. How many times have you come across another person talking about someone else only to be sweet as pie when they are near? And how many times have you pretended to be happy when you want to scream inside? Masks. These are all masks that everyone wears at some time in their lives. I was talking with a friend today when this came up. About how easy it is for some …

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Unknown to You, Very Real for Them

I am on a work trip right now in a big city. We have trains, lots of people, and tons of cars all around us. I know there are many people that thrive living and working in big cities, but there are also many that cannot. For those, it can get overwhelming really fast. And for some, it can be a downright panic. Sensory issues and overload is something that several people fight, and very few understand. And the more I see what my coworker goes through, the more I understand for my son. As kids, we parents are used …

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Be Careful Pouring from One Cup to Another

If you are like me, reaching out to anyone for help feels impossible. The feeling of being a burden to them. Or not wanting to bring down the mood, these are things that stop me from wanting to talk about everything. Now reverse this and think about what other people maybe feeling and not reaching out to you. Then when they do, how do you handle being someone’s support? Because that is not easy either. I am one that reaches out to all my friends at some point to check in. I want them to know I am here and …

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Everyone is Fighting Something

I am starting this post not really having a clear idea of what to write about. I mean I have friends dealing with unhealthy attachments. People who are just trying to survive the day. And others that are burning the candle at both ends. All around us is mental health. Everywhere are tests and celebrations. Everyone is living a good day or just a day survived. We are so easy to hide feelings, thoughts, and emotions. Hide away that we are struggling. But so easy to share the laughter, the smiles, even if it might be fake. It takes seconds …

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Finding Your Solitary Strength in Silent Wars

You are not alone. I had a team member from my game reach out to me over the last few days. She found herself emotionally attached to a guy on the team, but there was strife. She was feeling embarrassed and hopeless. She had the inner strength to reach out to me for help. One text saying, “please talk me down from the ledge.” Just one friend asking another for some comfort. How many times have you felt alone dealing with your problems? Every day we face relationships, feelings, struggle, personalities, you name it. But not all of it gets …

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Can you see the unseen?

How many times have you lied to someone about how you feel about something? Have you ever smiled just to keep the attention off of you? Or just stayed quiet and moved throughout your day? It is very easy to hide away your emotions. Do it long enough and you become really good at it. Go too long and you start to lose yourself. It is okay to not be okay. And it is okay to speak up and say you are not okay. When I was a child, I remember riding in the back of my parents car watching …