Confidence is a powerful tool. Hard to hold for many, yet easy to lose for most. The feeling of knowing, strength, and pride. A quiet empowerment for some that made getting through the day easier. Or a loud boast, showing the world all they can do. Confidence is also something too many people struggle with daily. And that struggle can cause added hardship.
Struggle
I lacked confidence in much of my life. Living with insecurities about being good enough, smart enough, and pretty enough. For many days I lived in the shadows I created. Scared to believe any different. Unable to see myself as the world was seeing me. As complete strangers were seeing a confident woman, I was second-guessing everything.
There was a job interview I had years ago that surprised me. I walked in and met with the manager right away. Not once did they ask me any questions or review my qualifications. What he did was tell me that it was the confidence he saw in me as I walked in minutes ago that told him I was right for the job. (Ended up not taking the job for other reasons.) I left there not understanding what he saw in me.
Outsiders
I have had managers, friends, and family tell me that they see a confident woman in front of them. And I couldn’t see it. As I have changed jobs these last couple of years, I try very hard to not let my insecurities sabotage me. To not fall into complacency because I am too scared to try something new. Trying to keep any overthinking back from taking control of my daily life. Because deep down, I know I can handle the job. I know I can do the job and make it something great.
It is very hard for some to understand what it is like to live with insecurities. How hard it is to break past them and have confidence in ourselves. To one day look in the mirror and feel you are good enough, worthy enough to be respected in life. And how easy it is for one small roadblock life throws at us can make it all fall away.
I have been told that I am smart enough to handle jobs beyond my experience. Told that I am good enough to be worthy of respect and love I deserve in life. And I am pretty enough that I have people who love me for who I am inside and out. Altogether, I am strong enough to hold my head high in confidence and start to believe. Believe in my love. My strength. And believe in me.
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With great warmth,
