But who supports you? The feeling of the weight of the world sitting on your shoulders can be unbearable at times. Running around, trying to take care of everyone. Coworkers, bosses, friends, parents, and siblings. Don’t forget your children, spouses, significant others, and grandparents. Providing care and interest into their daily lives. Always showing each your devotion and love for who they are and what they do.
Where is the support
I am sitting here thinking that I am lucky in many ways to have the support I do have. Each person in my life supports me in various ways. Some are stronger than others, helping me stay on track. But, even with the support I have, is it enough? Think about where your support comes from in your life.
Family support
I have family that supports me in all I do. When I decided to change my career path and go back to school. Each person has been proud of the path I chose, seeing how I am affected by this change. I don’t live near my family other than my husband and son. Everyone else live in other states. Would it be different if they were closer, I would like to think so. Everyone has their own lives and challenges to deal with daily. But being able to see your family more than twice a year, even though I call my parents 3-5 times a week, it is different.
Friendly support
My friends (the few I have), my coworkers, bosses, and even my instructors all support me in this change and my adventure through this blog. But is it enough? Am I getting the right support? Hmmm.
Is it enough?
Last week I had a day of depression. I struggled with accepting my life as it is today as something that is good. Am I a good mother? A good wife? Have I been good enough at work lately? Am I doing the right thing going back to school? Will this really make me happy? Is my blog good enough? Each and every question wound through my mind all day and didn’t want to let go. I found myself analyzing my movements through my life.
That day was hard for me. Many people around me at work and home noticed my behavior change. I learned more about the people in my life that day too. Because most who noticed and asked, gave me their silent support with just a look of care. I did have one or two that gave me a tone of “you’re not supposed to be unhappy, and I don’t like it that you are. Is it about me?” But those that did provide support, gave me a chance to tame my mind. By just a look of “I am here if you need me,” settled the questions a little.
Parenting
My parents are wonderful, and I am able to talk with them on most topics. Some personal feelings I have about myself, I feel I need more of an outsider. Although my mom is my best friend, there are times when she doesn’t fully understand how I feel about myself. The best part, though, is the full support she gives me daily and the chance to be able to talk to her if I need to. I still remember, years ago I was really struggling with some depression, and she went to the local Build-A Bear store. She made me a pink teddy bear that has a button in its hand that makes it giggle. I still have it today.
Outside Support
I find myself thinking about reaching out to a professional for support. An opportunity to talk to someone that is not a part of my life circle, that may be able to give me some added insight into my personal feelings. Because I still find myself looking for more support. Almost needing a daily dose of “You are good enough.” But is this support or just looking for compliments? And the deep question, why do I feel like I NEED the constant affirmation and praise?
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Support is a chance to let someone know that you have their back in their life and some (and maybe all) of the choices they make. Giving someone the encouragement to continue to thrive and push themselves to be better, healthier, greater. We support our children. Support our spouses and loved ones. Are you supporting yourself? Who supports you?
With great warmth,
