Exploring the fabric of our stories one character at a time.

Getting tired of being tired

Is it me, or does it feel like suddenly life became the Energizer Bunny and has not stopped trying to make each day harder? There are days when it feels as if nothing seems to go right. Every now and then you get a glimpse of something good, only to be faced with more hurdles in front of you. It is overwhelming. Completely exhausting. To be tested through every second of the day, week, and even month, just to try and make some headway. I get so tired of being tired. Warriors As I have been writing this blog I …

Comfortable in the dark, only to want more light

I have discovered so much about myself as I travel this road.  One thing has me puzzled. Why am I finding it so hard to be happy? I still look in the mirror, only to see someone that could look better. Thinking about what I do at work and throughout my day, only to feel like I am nothing special. The constant feeling of wanting to be more, better, prettier, and special. Almost as if I am comfortable here. That is the problem. Ask any of my family, my friends, my coworkers, and they will tell you about just how …

Is fear deciding for you?

I was recently talking with some friends of mine about my career path and the choices I have in front of me. I have been looking at changing from real estate into mental health. However, someone mentioned I should also look into writing as I love to write and (apparently) they said I am really good at it. So when my friends started asking if I had thought about podcasts and videos, I was ready to shoot down the idea in a heartbeat. Suddenly, I could feel my heart rate kick up and I was beginning to get fidgety. My …

Have you ever been addicted?

You hear someone say the word “Addiction” and what is the first thing that comes into your mind? Drugs, alcohol, or gambling? Probably. I bet some of you never thought about food, sex, intimacy, exercise, working, the internet, and so much more.  Addiction is commonly described in the 4 C’s: Compulsion, Cravings, Consequences, and Control. Are you compelled to do this, to have this? Do you crave it? Is the consequence of you having/doing this a positive or negative? Can you control your desire for this? So, I have to ask, have you ever been addicted? I have…and I am. …

Products of childhood or the choices we make

When you were a child, did you have dreams of being a doctor, a teacher, the president, or a ballerina? Did you dream about flying in space or putting on a show for your family and friends? Did your parents and teachers tell you things like, “you can be anything you want to be when you grow up.” And when you grew up, are you the doctor you dreamed about? Maybe a teacher? Or did you become that ballerina in the fancy outfits? Are we products of our childhood, or the choices we made along the way? Kids Confidence and …

When needing so little means so much

Tired from running around after the kids. Exhausted from the constant demand and questions at work. Drained from the push to do more, be more, show more. Suddenly, the time comes. The desire to step away. Hit the pause button for a little while. Go off grid for some time. Just some peace and quiet to calm the racket in your head. Having the need to break away from the constant can mean so much. Robotic We have all been there. The days are beginning to blend together. The stress of life is so much that we forget what happened …

How strong is your support system?

It can be fascinating to listen to my various friends and family that I reach out to, in their words of wisdom and empathy as they hear about my struggles. Interesting because each one of them is different than the other. The message may be the same, but the approach and tone is very different. This is why a strong support system needs to consist of various people, various outlets, and a variety of personalities. Because a strong support system will get you through all obstacles in your way. Types of Support As many of us do, part of my …

Life of a working man (woman)

There are 24 hours a day. That is 24 hours to try to fit in sleeping, eating, working, maybe school, taking care of the family, and if you can find the time, taking care of yourself. On average, reported time spent in America working is between 34-38 hours a week. I emphasized that this is what is reported through payrolls. Because if you ask some of your friends, I bet you will find some working less and some working much more. So on average we are spending over one-third of our daily lives at work. And here is the question…do …

Never easy to understand grief

I came across an article from PsychCentral that was titled “9 Different Types of Grief”. I had not even read the article, and the title alone opened a flood of emotions. Grief is something we all go through many times in our lives. But do we really understand grief and how we are able to cope through it? Honestly, I thought I did. Until last year. When I was made aware of grief I had not even considered. Defining Grief When you hear the word “grief”, many think of the loss of a loved one. Whether family or friend. That …

Another Year is Another Chance

In just a few days we are going to say goodbye to 2022 and hello to the new year. If you are like me, these last 365 days have tested you, pushed you, blind-sided you, and maybe even lifted you. But the best thing about 2022, if you are sitting there reading this now, the best thing is…you survived! It is another year you survived and now you are being given another chance. The Old Year I was talking with a friend recently when I admitted that this year, I have changed in so many ways. The past year, I …