Exploring the fabric of our stories one character at a time.
Exploring the fabric of our stories one character at a time.
Exploring the fabric of our stories one character at a time.
Clinically and Non-Clinically Diagnosed
There was an event on social media a while about a dress that appeared to be one color to some people and a completely different color to others. We know that there are people who cannot see certain colors. But when it comes to our own view, our vision is distorted. How we see ourselves is nothing like how others see us. We do not look the same to everyone. As a child, I fought against teasing for how I looked. I was tall, but I was a big kid. I was quiet and shy. To the other kids, I …
I have been spiraling. Drowning in despair and depression. Losing my ambition and my drive. Like I was building my box again to hide in. Everything felt impossible and nothing was going right for me. At times I believed that there was no part of my life that was going well. I was falling and I didn’t know if I could be saved again. That was until I had an epiphany during one of my “car-therapy” sessions. Now my focus is defined, and my path is set…on me. Therapy I love driving. Road trips are so relaxing for me. And …
I had a rough few days lately. Criticism is never easy to hear, no matter how it is delivered. Add in the constant feeling of not being good enough, and criticism is even harder to handle. No one likes being told they did something wrong. So, when I received some criticism a couple of days ago, it was a hit to my emotions. Delivery I am not going to get into how the critique was delivered by the other person. This one was blunt and straight forward. But whether it was softened or harsh, getting news that something you did …
We all get asked a simple question, “how are you doing?” But lately, I cannot answer it. When I take a second to think about it, I can’t tell if I am okay or not. I don’t know if I am happy or not. And that is when I realize that I can’t describe it all. Because I feel numb. But it’s numb from feeling it all. There are so many emotions running through, I feel none of it. So how do I answer the question. How can I describe it? Patterns Someone pointed out to me recently that I …
This past Monday I had a mental crash. The stress of work and life came tumbling down on top of me. It started with a small mistake that had me spiraling out in my mind. Yesterday, a friend of mine was having a breakdown under the stress she was facing with her family. Not being able to help more or feel like she was making a difference. And someone else had told me that they were struggling with feeling like they mattered. It doesn’t matter who you are, what age or gender. It is true that we all need a …
These past couple of weeks have been extremely stressful for me. I struggled to focus, function, or even manage my thoughts and emotions. Then talking with some friends, I found they were struggling with similar issues. Facing grief, they struggled with managing their thoughts and emotions. It took me a few days to get control again. Realizing that the only person who can control and manage my emotions is me. My emotions managed by my rules. You Control One of my friends has been dealing with caring for their in-laws that was very sick. The stress they face daily, trying …
I had an episode last night. For the last week, I have been stressed and pushing myself. Then when I got home, I had little time to relax. For days this was happening. So, when my workday became even more stressful, my body went into exhaustion. Last night I was not physically exhausted, but mentally. And so other areas were intensified. That was when the tears flowed. Suddenly, I felt lost, lonely, and so tired of everything. You It is so important that we take time for ourselves. However, you can work it out, it is vital. I have not …
What makes you happy? Not just what do you like to do or just enjoy. But what is in your life that truly makes you happy. Is there a person, a pet, or an activity that makes you smile. Something or someone that helps you to recenter your mind. Is there something that gives you a moment of peace? We all need an outlet. Whether you have a hobby, or there is a special person in your life. A way to release the stress and frustration life throws at us. This is a short post this week, because I want …
I have been writing this blog for almost 5 years now. Every week I try to talk about something different. There are times that I know exactly what to say and sometimes I don’t have a clue. Many times, life just gives me the topic in the form of my own personal challenge. But today, it is different. For the last 2 weeks I have been living on autopilot. Get up, go to work, come home, go to sleep. And everything in between becomes background noise. Like I am sitting there with 100 TV screens all on different channels and …
My son is growing up so fast. Soon he will be starting his teenage years. Years that come with driving, relationships, new schools, and learning about being an adult. But for now, we are trying to enjoy these early years. Trying because this little man is starting to feel big emotions. And he doesn’t know what to do with them. I just want to make sure I help him to understand what he is feeling. No Age Gap Mental health disorders and illnesses can hit all ages. Children are also just as susceptible as they experience traumatic events and are …