I have been playing a game online with many people from all over the world. Recently we had a fight on the game that had many people breaking trust and fighting within their groups. Emotions ran high for everyone. Some people felt the stress was too much and left the game. I was almost one of them. But I found in trying to build back from this fight, that there is a time in which you fight and a time in which you stop and move on. When you hold onto your drive for more, and when you fold up …
Healing
All I want to do is understand
I had an interesting conversation with my mom this week. I have been working on improving myself and loving myself these past 3 years. Learning to love who I am and enjoy being me. Since I also found the new job, it has really helped. Pushing me to believe in myself and trust my instincts. But I still have down days. Bad days that want me to hide from all that know me. And in the conversation with my mom, she couldn’t understand why I had them. Don’t Ask Don’t Tell Ever ask someone to explain how they felt at …
Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow in One Person
These past few days have been difficult for me. But when I was able to get out from under them, they became a lesson. We struggle getting through some days. But if we take the time, they can be the lesson we didn’t know we needed. I had someone ask me if I wished to go back in time to do things differently. Sure. Most of us have things in our past we would love to have done differently if we had the chance. But the thing is, if we didn’t make those decisions back then, we wouldn’t be the …
It is a Symptom of Being Human
I have been reminiscing lately about my life. Thinking about everything I have experienced and how it has shaped my life as it is today. My son was having an emotional episode lately and asked me “Mom, why am I here?” and “Why am I the way I am?” These questions are not easy to answer. Because there are so many ways to answer them. But it was these questions that made me think. I have been trying for so long to figure out my place in this world. To understand why I was in this world. How do I …
Pain, Pain, Go Away, Come Back Another Day
Ever hear the nursery rhyme “Rain, Rain, Go Away”? The idea that a gloomy day is not what you want. To bring back the sun and brighten up the day. This idea is one that many of us feel constantly. I have been happier lately. Smiling more, dancing in my car, even laughing more. But it doesn’t take much to bring my thoughts down. A simple comment can bring the rainy day back into my life. Still Working I have been working very hard to get my life into some sort of order. Friendships are brightening my day. Work has …
How I fight with life every day
Ever look at your friends and watch them laugh and dance? They really look like they are having a good time. Almost like they do not have a care in the world. You might even wish you were more like them. Thinking that they have an easy life. But you are probably wrong. Too many times, those smiles are hiding the dark they hold. All the worry and fear that keep them up at night. All the frustration and sadness they face daily. Just because they are happy now, doesn’t mean they are not still fighting every day. One Piece …
Do or do not, there is no try! Or is there?
Ever wake up and wish you were on that galaxy far, far, away? Wondering why life has to be so hard? If you are like me, you have been battling for decades. Tired of fighting all of the time. Wanting to push the pause button on the remote control of life. But instead, we wake up each day to a new morning. Trying to figure out how the day is going to treat you today. Every day life is going to bring you a new challenge. The choice is how you are going to face it. Try to ignore and …
Do you know what you have to let go
I mentioned last week that I was blessed with getting a new job. After two years of searching, trying to figure out what I wanted and what I was good at. I finally said goodbye to my former employer and hello to a new adventure. It has been an eye-opening week too. Because I couldn’t help comparing my last company to this one. And that was when I realized what I had finally let go of. Let it be gone I am sure you have heard the phrase, “you don’t know what you have until it’s gone.” This is true. …
Is there something wrong with perfect
Had a chat with my therapist this week as we dived a little deeper into my thoughts. Trying to find any kind of rhyme or reason for why I would think the way I do or worry about everything so easily. Every day I find a way to dissect the reasons why something happened or didn’t happen. Always ending up in arguments with myself because I know better. And then it hit me. Suddenly I started thinking, “what is wrong with me?” Arguing, “why do I do this?” Is there something wrong with me? The start As we all work …
The power of Emotions: Healer or destroyer of our mind
Ever have one of those days that you just want to scream or throw something? Everyone has stress. We all experience stressful days. Some of us have techniques to manage our daily stress and there are some of us that hold it all in. Either way, all the stress and emotions we feel throughout the day builds up within us. Substantial energy, both good and bad, sits inside until we find a way to release it. It is how we use those emotions, that energy within our minds that can heal us or destroy us. Power of the mind I …