I have been sitting here thinking about my life and who I am. Since I started thinking about the adjectives that would describe me for my journal, it has me really thinking about how I see myself. I know what my past has shown me. What events I had been faced with and forced to overcome, even when I was too young to understand why life was the way it was. Like when I was a teenager going through junior high school and having kids tease me and boys “pretend” to like me. Or in high school when I had …
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How you see yourself
I purchased a really cool journal for myself called “Love This F*cking Journey for me” by D.A. Sarac. The beginning section of the journal has you reflecting on your past and what you would say to the younger you. But then, I got stuck. Because I ended up on the page that focuses on me now. It is an image of a watering can and water drops down to a small plant. The object of the page is to fill in the water drops with all of the adjectives you would use to describe yourself. Outside view of my life …
Too much in life making you numb
You ever get those days that it feels like everything is coming down on you? So much going on at work, too much at school, overwhelming family life, and then add relationships on top of all of that. Too many thoughts. Way too many feelings. And all you can do is take one step in front of the other like a robot through your life. You suddenly feel numb. Not really sad, or happy, or even…well anything. Just a robot I’ve had too many robotic days in my life. Each day blended into the other. Thoughts in my head swarmed …
It is beautiful to be you
Last week I mentioned about how life can change in a split second. That goes for our own mind frame. What I am talking about is that in a split second we can go from feeling good to immediately feeling bad. Or vice versa go from feeling bad about ourselves to suddenly feeling good. I bring this up because recently I had kind of an epiphany in my life. I had someone I didn’t know and I had a dear friend of mine, tell me that I was very beautiful and anyone who had me in their life was lucky. …
Sticks and stones (and words) can hurt us
I have been standing here at my son’s school waiting for him to come out, watching all of these other families and how they interact with each other. I have been watching the parent’s overall look compared to their child’s appearance. It got me thinking about my son and childhood in general. As a parent, am I helping my child, or are my words hurting his later years too? Have you ever said or heard, “comb your hair, it looks like a mess?” Here’s another one, “tuck your shirt in so you don’t look like a slob.” And one I …
Look how inspiration surrounds us
Since I started on this path about mental health, everywhere I turn I find inspiration. I go into Facebook, and I have post after post of quotes, tools to help sufferers battle anxiety, and companies reaching out to support anyone who needs it. Then I go to Instagram and TikTok, finding more quotes, videos, and complete strangers telling me that I am not alone in this world. Driving to work each morning, I have the radio up loud, singing to the song on my Pandora stations. Sitting back and really listening to the lyrics to my favorite bands, expressing their …
Learning more about wellness
Having some sort of balance in your life can help calm some of the chaos in your mind. Since looking at the emotions and environment last week, let’s turn our focus on another dimension…Intellectual. School Learning I admit, growing up I struggled through school. Going through stressful times throughout childhood can do that. I was bullied from 2nd grade and continued getting teased until I hit high school. Then fell into a depression for 6 years. My academic focus was pretty much non-existent at that time. I would bring home grades barely making C’s and B’s. I found no area …
New Year, Fresh Start
A new year is here again. That one time in our lives that we take a closer look at ourselves and see what we might want to do better. The dreaded Resolutions! You have all heard them. Many have broken them. I lost count how many resolutions I made and broken within the first month. You remember them. “This year I am going to lose weight.” “I want to be a better friend this year.” “I plan to volunteer at least once a week, no once a month.” “This year I am going to focus on (myself, school, my family, …
When was the last time you looked in the mirror?
When was the last time you looked in the mirror and loved what you saw? For me, I can honestly say that it has happened, but it’s rare. Growing up, I was always the bigger girl in school. Started my first diet in 3rd grade. I tried everything I could afford. Weight Watchers, pills, Atkins, counting calories…Then I even had weight loss surgery. Don’t get me wrong, I will be the first one that cheers for anyone considering weight loss surgery. It saved my life and brought me a wonderful son too. But….I still don’t like the way I look. …