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The fear of overcoming fears

Since I started working on myself and researching mental health, my insecurities have been very evident to me. The fear of not being liked has me holding back. Preventing me from being who I want to be. And it wasn’t until recently when a friend pushed me to voice my fear that I realized how bad it was. I knew my insecurities were an issue. And I knew that it was becoming an issue with me and my friends. But when you are faced with it, a new fear surfaces. The fear of overcoming your own fears. Comfort Zone For …

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You are the beautiful needle in the haystack

I was trying to figure out what I was going to write about this week. So, I sat here and played my game on my phone for a little bit, when it hit me. Loneliness. I had a friend on my game say they were lonely. Even with all of these other players, he was lonely. Then I started thinking about me and realizing that I have friends near me and friends that are far away. I have family near me and family that is far away. All of these people love and care about me. But I sit here …

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Learn when to hold them and when to fold them

I have been playing a game online with many people from all over the world. Recently we had a fight on the game that had many people breaking trust and fighting within their groups. Emotions ran high for everyone. Some people felt the stress was too much and left the game. I was almost one of them. But I found in trying to build back from this fight, that there is a time in which you fight and a time in which you stop and move on. When you hold onto your drive for more, and when you fold up …

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Just a Little Piece of Candy for You

Today is Halloween in the US. A day for kids to walk around in costumes of various styles and ask for candy. I sit here watching the families walking by as I hand out the candy and think about all of these people in this world. What could their life be like? Are they happy? To imagine everyone in this world having different experiences and living different lives. And each one pushing through, trying to find their happiness. We walk around in our little bubbles not realizing that someone is also going through something. What would this world be like …

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When plugging into an outlet can help

Ever have one of those days that you wish you could forget? Maybe it wasn’t a bad day or a very stressful day, but just one that used all of your energy? Of course you have. We all have. But what do you do at the end of that stressful day? What is your outlet to plug into and relax? Do you have a hobby or maybe go to the gym? All of that energy you used during the day, how are you refilling your cup? Outlets are very important resources to help get us through the craziness we face. …

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All I want to do is understand

I had an interesting conversation with my mom this week. I have been working on improving myself and loving myself these past 3 years. Learning to love who I am and enjoy being me. Since I also found the new job, it has really helped. Pushing me to believe in myself and trust my instincts. But I still have down days. Bad days that want me to hide from all that know me. And in the conversation with my mom, she couldn’t understand why I had them. Don’t Ask Don’t Tell Ever ask someone to explain how they felt at …

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How my life stepped forward only to trigger back

This past week I have dealt with being sick with COVID, changes at work, the family getting sick, and changes in vacation plans. And even with all of that, I have been trying to keep focusing on myself. But I Tuesday night, something strange happened. I had a trigger out of the blue. How do I know? Because suddenly my mind shifted. Nothing was right. Nothing was good. My mind went from everything being good, to everything being dark. It was that quick. That easy. I fell. The good parts My life has been turning around lately. I love my …

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Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow in One Person

These past few days have been difficult for me. But when I was able to get out from under them, they became a lesson. We struggle getting through some days. But if we take the time, they can be the lesson we didn’t know we needed. I had someone ask me if I wished to go back in time to do things differently. Sure. Most of us have things in our past we would love to have done differently if we had the chance. But the thing is, if we didn’t make those decisions back then, we wouldn’t be the …

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How to spot a bully

Unfortunately, in today’s world, bullying is still evident. This past week, my son was a victim of bullying by a few kids at his school. When he told me about it, I immediately sent a message to the principal stating the situation. I then sat my son down to discuss the event and some of the steps he can take to fight back against bullying, well that don’t involve fists. The school addressed the issue and assured both myself and my son that there should be no further incidents. This whole scenario had me thinking about how bullying is not …

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I doubt you can doubt more than me

This week was a test of mental stability for sure. Well, for me it was. I have been with my company for only about 4 months now. The people are so nice, and I can see many of them really care about each other. I look around and see people working hard, laughing, and casual conversations. It is a pleasant experience each day. And for 4 months, I have had a really good time here. But this week really tried me and my mental health. And suddenly, my own self doubt found a way to creep back in. Creeping back …