Closer Look at the Puzzle Pieces of Life

You.

Just you.

When was the last time you stopped and thought about you? Do you know what you want right now?

Realization Piece

Sitting at home this past year made me open my eyes to my little world around me. Taking a real close look at my life and how I lead it. It was a revelation I am not sure on how to handle. Or if I even should.

I am sitting here right now outside my home watching my son and his friends play down the street. It is a matter of time before he comes to me asking for something. I will be happy to stop writing and either go inside to get what he needs or pack everything up. Yup, here he comes wanting to go back inside instead of playing outside with his friends. So, I pack everything up and inside I go.

Caring Piece

Another case of stopping what I want to do to take care of another. My son, no problem. I would do it in a heartbeat. But how many times does someone ask for a piece of my time? As I started really looking at my world, the answer is too many times. My realization was that my time, my world has been pieced out to everyone around me so much so, I started losing myself.

Who am I? What do I like to do for fun? Do I have anything I really like to do anymore? These are questions that seem to be coming up more and more these days.

Lost Piece

We recently went through the holidays. Every year, my husband and family ask what I want for Christmas. All I can do, is shrug. I don’t know. I haven’t known for a little while now. Until recently. As I mentioned before, this past year made me really step back and take a close look at my world. What I found, was not so happy. So…I started piecing back my life.

Piece #1: My job. I have been an Assistant Property Manager for Commercial properties for a few years now. I have enjoyed real estate, to a point. After I received my real estate license, I started seeing real estate in a different light. One I was not so enthralled with anymore. I decided to speak with a few people and after a year of analyzing, I took the step and spoke to my manager about finding a new position for myself. Something in the company but outside the Property Management umbrella.

Piece #2: This piece has become one of the most important pieces. My writing. I started writing back in high school and loved it. Life started getting in the way and it took a back seat. Until this past year. I had time on my hands again. With a little centering, I was able to find my way back into my writing. Created some additional poems. Dabbled with some lyrics. Then, made the jump into blogging.

My Piece

These pieces of my world are just that. A piece. Of a larger puzzle. A story that I can shape to my will. The problem was my will was being monopolized by other characters in my story. Before I knew it, I was losing myself. My purpose, my goal. I will always want to help others. But, when I start feeling like my whole being was put here to take care of other people, I know my piece of my puzzle is missing.

The world would be kinder and happier, if more people would take care of others. The balance of life is learning how to continue taking care of yourself at the same time.

You.

Do you really know who you are?

With great warmth,