Exploring the fabric of our stories one character at a time.

Do you know what it is like?

I wanted to give you another glimpse of what it is like to be me. Well, to help some of you try to understand what we go through when we are trying to heal. There are some people I do not share my troubles with, because I know I will get something like, “well you just need to do this” or “why did you do that?” Being someone that has depression, anxiety, PTSD, and is actively trying to heal from everything I have and am going through, it is definitely much easier ‘said than done’. Want to know what it …

How to help those who fight back

We all go through so much in our lives. But add in family and friends that are also going through things, your day can go from pleasant to frustrating very quickly. Picture this, you are a parent of a teenager. We all know that kids at teen age can go from super happy to in tears within seconds. But as a parent we want to help our children. So, you ask, is there anything wrong? By the way they say ‘no’, you immediately know there is something wrong. They won’t open up. Very adamant that there is nothing wrong. You …

Making it through the thick of the branches

There are so many of us that have experienced traumatic events in our lives. Some of these things happen quickly, while others occur over long periods of time. Eventually we get to a point (I hope) where we are ready to get help. That we are tired of how we are living, and we want to be happy again. We will seek out professional help or maybe reach out to our friends and family. No matter how, we start to work on ourselves. But too many of us forget, no matter what happened or how long it was, healing is …

Why do I really care so much

Ever have one of those days where you just want the day to be over? Feels like everything is a struggle. You want something you can’t have. Something you want to do but can’t do. Seems like everyone needs your time. Fighting to keep your head above water, let alone keep your mind straight. Ever have one of those days when you ask, why do I care? There is some good For the last few weeks, I have been feeling pretty good. My life is still in utter chaos, but I was smiling more. I felt better about myself. Even …

Triggers can make you realize more about yourself

Life has been testing me every day. Testing my resolve and my patience. Trying to get me to break down from frustration or sadness. So far, I have been pushing back every chance I get. But recently, I discovered something about myself. I have a new fight on my hands. A fight against reality and the triggers of my mind. Triggers of the past I have dealt with people avoiding me. The whispers and glares in my direction. Constantly being ignored. I fought against the mind game of thinking I was not good enough. Until recently when I recognized that …

Life at work is not all fun and games

Every day we are fighting against life. Whether there is something at home, at school, for the kids, or our parents. Add in the stress of a job and it is a wonder we are functioning at all. Many Americans spend over 8 hours a day working, while many work more than 5 days a week (US Bureau of Labor Statistics). There are 24 hours in the day. So, there is one-third of your day spent with people that, more than likely, are not related to you (some family businesses out there.) These people become like another family, another home. …

Is it really half empty or is your glass half full?

Ever been faced with a time in your life when the world seems to be throwing problems at you left and right? Like all of your ideas never come true for some reason or another. Almost as if something or someone is out to get you. It would be very easy to start to see life as a problem. As if there is no reason to do anything anymore. Constantly seeing life as a half empty glass only leads further down the dark path. But is life half empty or can you change the way you look at life and …

This is such a strange feeling

I have been battling and running through several ideas to determine what I was going to write about this week. I was struggling to find a topic. Even asked my husband and my friends. Then two of them said, just write about how you are feeling. Well, I am going through a strange feeling right now, so why not. Because right now, I feel content. And I don’t know what to do with it. Why so strange Yes, today I am in a good mood. I have had to deal with a lot of stress at work and will be …

Why You Need To Find Your Own Way Out

Ever have one of those days where you feel like hiding away? Nothing seems to be going right. It feels as if everyone is always needing you. Like the world is swarming around you. I know I have. Lately, it feels like I am drowning in the middle of the ocean and there is not one single person around to help. Trying to find a job and a career path that I enjoy, family life, and my own personal struggle, is gaining on me and I cannot find a way out. A regular day When you have a young child …

The Triggers of the Mind

You are going about your day. It is even becoming one of the better days you’ve had in a while. When suddenly your mind fills with negative thoughts. This happened to me recently. Triggers can come in various forms. Sounds, conversations, certain words, smells, anything that you can absorb through your senses can trigger your mind. Many times, these triggers can remind you of positive experiences. Maybe remembering a loved one that passed away. But it is the triggers that result in negative thoughts that can be dangerous. Because in this case, it becomes a trauma response that ultimately can …