I have been writing this blog for almost 5 years now. Every week I try to talk about something different. There are times that I know exactly what to say and sometimes I don’t have a clue. Many times, life just gives me the topic in the form of my own personal challenge. But today, it is different. For the last 2 weeks I have been living on autopilot. Get up, go to work, come home, go to sleep. And everything in between becomes background noise. Like I am sitting there with 100 TV screens all on different channels and I am staring at one.
The start
For someone that overthinks about every situation, every problem, life can make my brain misfire. Every day I am thinking about something and worrying, planning, or deciding what I should do. To go from what I should wear to what we are going to have for dinner in 3 seconds is strange to most. For me, it is an everyday thing.
Reboot
There are some days that I have so much going on in my mind that I cannot tell if it is a good day or not. It feels like I have no emotion at all. And that is one of the strangest feelings to have. Nothing bothers me and nothing excites me. Just a constant numbness all over. When I get like this, there is not much that can be done to start again. Like my mind needs to reboot for a few days and process something I am stuck on.
Start again
Everyone has a way to process events in their life. For some people, they can compartmentalize their thoughts to process certain things one at a time. There are some that find other means to work through various moments of their life to be able to move forward. But too many are like me. We have a capacity limit, and our minds go into a shutdown to stop from falling too far into darkness. And we wait for a way to start back up. Whether through talking with friends or exercise, working through an outlet to break past the emotional block. A path to working through life to a healthier future.
Enjoy these videos (see if you can recognize the movie).
With great warmth,
